I hate my phone.
In fairness I hate the talking aspect of my phone. I hate answering the phone. I hate making calls. I hate having to talk. I hate having to wait. Basically if I could buy a phone that only had text and internet, I’d be first in line to purchase one. I know, it defeats the purpose of being a phone.
I’m an introvert at heart. Whilst I can easily make conversation with strangers and feel at ease generally wherever I go, it takes me a really long time to recover after being around people. And that includes being on the phone.
My mother calls me at least every second day after work. Sometimes every day. Its exhausting. Whilst I love my mama it’s too much for me. After a day at work I don’t want to talk about my day. I don’t want to hear a minute by minute account of someone else’s day. Whilst I love my nephew I don’t need to know that he cried and pooped 5 times in one day. I just want to sit and chill out on my own. Like everyone, I’ve got shit to do. I have to cook, I have to clean, I have to spend time with the dog. I sometimes even want to exercise. I even get frustrated when my fiance calls me on his way to or from work to ‘chat’ because when I get home I need me time.
But its something that is so difficult for other people to understand. Those people who are energised being around other people just don’t get how much alone time I need. And I accept that it’s hard for them. But you know what? If you don’t get it, then just accept it and move on. Don’t get all judgemental. Don’t tell me if I did things differently I’ wouldn’t need so much alone time. And don’t call me things like
That’s unfair and you know it.
Not only do everyday interactions exhaust me, I’m also the friend that gets dumped on. You know when your friend is in a mood or a funk and just needs to get the weight of the world off their shoulders? Yea, they usually come to introverts and dump their shit all over us. Its emotionally taxing being that person all the time. Its why most of us need a lot of time and space. Don’t get me wrong, I wouldn’t change that part of me for the world. But whilst it’s taxing for you to be feeling that way, imagine what it’s like for those of us who feel that way ourselves, but also hear it from the people around them.
So if you’re someone who doesn’t get it that’s totally cool. But don’t judge others on it. It’s not a reflection on you or how we feel about you. My best friend is probably one of the loudest, energetic people I know and I love her to death. I love spending time with her but I still need time to decompress afterwards. It’s nothing personal, it’s just the way I am.
So accept it, respect it and move on.
My downtime has nothing to do with you.